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Journal for the [:queen.of.quiet:].
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| Sunday, June 2nd, 2002 |
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I came across this. I'm a cynic with a happy face. I'm an empathizer whose claim to fame is not caring. I'm struggling to float. I laugh easily and cry hard. I yell despite the fact that I hate confrontation. I think too much and love too little. I'm a big person trapped in a small body. I'm too sarcastic and bitter for my age. I'm a cellist with a viola in my hands. I talk too much but listen twice as often. I want to do something with my life but don't think I have any potential. I'm introspective but outgoing. I suffocate in relationships but I want to be loved. I wear non-presciption glasses even though I have contacts in. I spend a lot of time alone with only my alter ego to keep me company. I'm easily amused but also easily distracted. I'm a tomboy with a poetic heart. I crave affection but mostly get burned. I hate rejection but am not easily embarrassed. I have talent but am way too hard on myself. I tremble when I'm beside myself with extreme emotion. I sometimes cannot explain. I don't understand strict authority. I'm usually content but I tend to panic. I chopped off all my hair because I wanted a change. I have as much fun as a blonde but my hair is so dark it's almost black. I have a photographic memory and lots of film. I'm an open book. I need support and friends. I try my hardest and think that's all that should matter. Hmmm... |
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contemplative.
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Don't really have anything to post about... I just feel bad that I've been neglecting my journal. I just got back from playing at graduation. That's gonna be me next year. I don't know if I want it to come or not. I'm excited but kind of sad at the same time. I'm just going to live it up this next year and face the complicated decisions when they come my way. I'm really excited for school to be out. I have some hesitancies about going away to camp but I can only hope that things'll work out for the best... After all I am a worrier so things'll probably be great. And seeing Grant a lot and vacation and having all the time in the world to do anything I chose is going to be great. I gotta start shopping and getting things together for camp. It's weird that I'm doing it this early but I'm going the first session now. I'm pushing all that off as much as I can. Oh well. Maybe I'll start doing laundry or something. But I'll bid you farewell for now. |
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calm.| Thursday, May 30th, 2002 |
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| I got my prom pictures developed. I just got them back. Some of them are really cute and others I ruin for the other attractive people in it. But oh well. Hafta cope and accept ones flaws I suppose. Much love... | ||||||||
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apathetic.| Tuesday, May 28th, 2002 |
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| My fishie laid eggs me thinks. But my dad says they're not eggs. Well whatever they were the majority of them are gone. I wonder what they were... Hm. Twas scary. >_ | ||||||||
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| Thursday, May 23rd, 2002 |
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| I like how when I sign into MSN it greets me and says, "Good evening, Princess!" I just got home from working on my American Studies project. We present the poster we made this afternoon tomorrow in class. Other than that nothing has been going on. Wish I had stuff to fill you in about... but nothing's been going on. I love you all. ^_^ | ||||||||
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dorky.| Sunday, May 19th, 2002 |
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| Since I can't figure out how to import my address book to my new email account I'll tell everyone through here that my email has changed to "sweetly_imbalanced@hotmail.com". Thanks. | ||||||||
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| Thursday, May 16th, 2002 |
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| Today is my birthday! Yayness. ^_^ It was an okay day... although not much unlike any other. | ||||||||
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giddy.| Wednesday, May 8th, 2002 |
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| Thanks everyone, for the well wishes and concern. I love you all. And I'm getting through things. One day at a time, baby. That's my motto for now. ^_^ And Liz reminded me that there are only 2 months left till camp. And that means summer... and that means sun, swimming, loads of free time, warm nights, camp, vacation, and heaven for me and Grant. | ||||||||
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okay.| Sunday, April 28th, 2002 |
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Last night was so much fun! My hair turned out so cute, Binaebi's dress rocked my world, and Grant looked hot as hell in his tux. After we took pictures at my house and were driving to Bravo!, he couldn't stop saying how beautiful I looked. I was so happy that he liked everything. I thought he looked amazing. I told him that I love it when he gets all dressed up. Valley Dale was so pretty. There was an egyptian theme and the decorations were so cool. There were hired people acting as Pharoh and Cleopatra and their servants. The music was great and I had so much fun. I danced most of the night but then my feet started to hurt. And the dance floor was packed. If you went up to the balconies you saw that there was only an inch or two in between all the dancing couples. But we kept dancing till I started to feel really light-headed. Silly me. But we sat out a little and I went and said hi to a bunch of people while Grant got drinks. Then we left and headed to Chris's to hang out. I changed out of my dress and we hung out there till 3, when I went home. I had soooooo much fun!! I love Grant so much and thank him from the bottom of my heart for making last night the greatest. ^_^ Aw... Now I'm getting all warm and fuzzy inside. Yay! LOL. I'll post the pictures once I get them developed. Everyone looked so good!! I can't get over how awesome prom was. I left half my stuff in Grant's car though. No biggie, he can give it to me when he comes over later. I love you all. |
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loved.| Thursday, April 25th, 2002 |
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I know these posts are kinda few and far between but I've been busy. I've been going to all of Grant's baseball games and trying to get some sleep and all that good stuff. My stuff for prom is pretty much all set. I just have to figure out what to do with my hair. My mom went out and got me two different wraps. She didn't know which one would look good. So I have a pink one and a white one. I tried everything on today. I realized that I hadn't seen what it all looked like. The dress and the shoes look really good together. I'm really excited. The plans didn't go exactly as I planned but I'm sure I'll have fun nonetheless. And me and Binaebs made a pact to slap the other one if we thought about going in different groups next year. But she's coming over to help me get ready and stuff before we go our seperate ways. I'm just worried about my group. Just a little cause I have no idea what to expect from everything. There is only one other couple going. Dean, one of Grant's friends, and his date for the night will be going with us, too. And I don't know why, but me and Dean can never seem to get along really well. We can hang out together and stuff with other people but we don't really seem to be friend material. And I don't know his date at all so I can't really get ready and be all friendly with her. I want "the girls" to come over to my house and we'd all get ready together. Like at homecoming. That was so much fun. And I wouldn't feel so awkward. But that's not really happening. But I'm sure I'll still have fun. It's a chance to broaden my horizons and meet new people. And the dance should be great. I'll let you in on how it goes later. I have a feeling I won't be back online till it's all over. Bye for now. And wish me luck. ^_^ |
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hungry.| Saturday, April 20th, 2002 |
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I have the new found freedom of showing off my ankles! Whee. I figured out that some of my pants are cuffable. So I've been wearing "flood" pants all day. I'm glad that I can finally wear my $65 Express jeans and $50 Abercrombie jeans that don't look good any other way. ^_^ And they look damn cute with my flip-flops and pink toenails. Mwah. ¤_¤ Hafta remind myself to start taking my camera wherever I go. I have some mini-projects I want to do for myself that include pictures of me and my friends. So if I go out tonight my camera comes with. O_o |
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| I was going to update about last night to try and get things off my chest and admit some faults and reveal some emotions... but then I looked at my journal page and saw how few comments there are. And not just cause I haven't been posting but EVER. It's been like this for the past few months. So I'm not posting anything now. I've had a really bad start to my weekend and none of this has helped. | ||||||||
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angry.| Wednesday, April 17th, 2002 |
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| Woot!! I just got out of the biggest pickle! I thought I was gonna be in such big trouble. But I'm a master negotiator and my dad wasn't even mad! We won again today. Undefeated!! Yeah baby. And today was a good game for my social life. LOL. All the mom's were talking to me and I'm a very well-known "sweet girl". Pat's mom kept saying how I was the cutest thing. The games are so much fun! Well, life is good but sleep is better. I'm gonna be posting more though I promise! I've missed you guys and hope nobody's angry with me. e_e | ||||||||
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exhausted.| Monday, April 15th, 2002 |
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| Not enough time in the day. And my journal has gotten the shaft once again. But hey, at least I'm not as sick... >_ | ||||||||
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| Wednesday, April 10th, 2002 |
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 Take the "How slutty are you" Test created by sami </textarea> Holy peepers! I'm so glad that Binaebs reminded me through her update that there are only two days left to buy prom tickets. Damn! That woulda sucked. O_O |
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Journal for the [:queen.of.quiet:].
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